I did it!

I actually unfriended someone one Facebook! It felt so good! It is not as though I couldn't have continued being friends with her. It was, however, that I realized I was going to get NOWHERE with that friendship. I mean, I had never even come close to meeting her in real life. I could have hung on, but I realized it was simply a "tease". I new it was time to say that enough was enough with that friendship. Now I don't have to, again, tease myself with things that I know are never going to happen, in connection with that friendship. It was good while it lasted, but cutting those ties was a very freeing experience. I should try even more of that!

One more thing?

I used to be wont to strike up new friendships on Facebook - even with people I didn't even know from Adam (or is that "Eve" or, in the Hebrew, "Chavah"). Now? I don't do it! I have no interest in going down that dead-end street anymore. I really feel like God is helping me narrow my focus.

I Can Trust... "You" (also known as "Thee")

I went looking for this song (by Rebecca St. James), and found the following cover of it! Someone had played it on the piano and sung it! I love the job he did on it! He said he had really come to enjoy this song, and I told him he was in good company!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=alP8Qt52UXQ


I have been really drawing help from this song today - because it is agonizing! I think, however, about certain "other dear people"; and what I would want if I were in their shoes! I know what I would want! Space! Room! Room to breathe! To think! I would NOT want any "claustrophobia"! I would want me to chill right out! I know for a fact that that is exactly what I would want.


Therefore, it is very straightforward what I need to do! As I already said: CHILL OUT! Another thing? Same thing I did last night! SLEEP! I got to bed BY 9 PM last night! What a miracle! I want that miracle again tonight! In fact, I am going to even aim for EIGHT! After all, I set my alarm for just after 4 AM; so if I want "eight" hours of sleep, I have to GET to bed by "eight!" Again, I can always aim for it!


I recall that Adam, in Genesis 2, was alone; and it wasn't good. And seems like in naming all of the animals, he was somehow keeping an eye out for a creature that could keep him company - and he wasn't finding one! Therefore, what did he do? Well, it was really God that caused him to fall into a deep sleep. Tonight, I pray that I will follow Adam's example and simply sleep! "...for so he giveth his beloved sleep..." (Psalm 127).


What did God do? He formed the woman out of Adam's side and BROUGHT HER TO HIM! I have been waiting on God to do that for me, too; for a very long time! Furthermore, I thought I was discerning him actually having been doing that for me, for the last several years. Even now, I am moving this one mountain I mentioned earlier so I can get back to waiting on him regarding this certain person (if not this one other person). In the meantime, however, I have to know that - once I have done everything I can to move those mountains - I might as well (again) sleep tight! They do move, but they also take time to move! This can be agonizing, and it is; but I recall the words of Paul from II Corinthians 4:

⁷ But we haue this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellencie of the power may be of God, and not of vs.

⁸ Wee are troubled on euery side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despaire,⁸

⁹ Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast downe, but not destroyed.

¹⁰ Alwayes bearing about in the body, the dying of the Lord Iesus, that the life also of Iesus might bee made manifest in our body.

¹¹ For we which liue, are always deliuered vnto death for Iesus sake, that the life also of Iesus might bee made manifest in our mortall flesh.

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¹⁶ For which cause we faint not, but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.

¹⁷ For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for vs a farre more exceeding and eternall waight of glory,

¹⁸ While we looke not at the things which are seene, but at the things which are not seene: for the things which are seene, are temporall, but the things which are not seene, are eternall.

(Taken from the 1611 edition, which - as I am sure is apparent - has some rather funky spelling!)

By the way? I read an article someone else had posted on Facebook; which a good friend had shared. I would have shared it too, but it contained the acronym, "WT#" (the # is a censorship job!). What the acronym stands for is: "What the... 'bleep'!"; and I don't like it! I certainly wasn't going to share that article, seeing I am "moving a mountain" - in other words, waiting for a certain article to get deleted from a friend's Facebook wall, which contains the expression: "Scary as 'bleep'!" I knew - when I saw that profane acronym in the article I was thinking of sharing - that the least I could do was be consistent!

Now, of course, though I am waiting for that article to get deleted, my hands are somewhat tied! If it was my Facebook account, I would simply delete it! This, however, is a friend's page! And this friend has every right to go right ahead and leave that article exactly where it is! I pray and hope that doesn't happen; but I still know it is up to her!

It is distressing and agonizing, but, as they say in AUS: "No worries!" Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof! I do pray, though, that any married person would be able to rest assured that they DO have a lot to be thankful for. I know I do too; but I don't want all this uncertainty for ever!

On the flip side? I'm going to have to make an agonizing phone call! To a woman! An attractive woman! Who is definitely interested in me! And I showed interest in her at first! I, however, am no longer interested in her! Why? It was too easy! She up and wanted me, seemingly, right away! That's no fun! That's boring! I WANT a challenge!

And this other situation? Challenge? Eat your heart out! And I am "eating my heart out"! I am reminding myself that - God willing - if this works out the way I want it to? Then, when it does? As I have said, I WILL do cartwheels! I will be 100% satisfied! And one of the reasons? It will have been the ULTIMATE struggle!

...THAT... I love! "...For hope that is seen is not hope - for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for? But if we hope for that we SEE NOT, then do we with patience wait for it..." (Romans 8)

I do wait for it. Again - first and foremost: for that mountain to move! And I command it, in Jesus' name, TO move! I do not, however, command the owner of that Facebook page to do anything! I pray that she will know she is free to do what she wants; but if she could be talked into wanting to delete that article, that would (I admit) be SUCH a relief to me. If she would be willing to pray about deleting it? That would be perfect for me! Goodnight!

Sincerely,

Daniel Robbins

When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. (Psalm 142:3)

Still Moving That Mountain!

It is agonizing - because, again, I have said that same word myself way too many times (the word I mentioned being in the article on a Facebook wall, which I had encountered when I wrote my last post)! Therefore, though I am grieved at the sight of it in that one article on that Facebook wall; I cannot complain. I did, however, discuss it with my mother and - of course - she agreed with me and even affirmed that I ought never to let that word roll off my tongue. Furthermore, seeing that word in an article on someone's Facebook wall is not a good sign! Until that sign changes, I MUST wait. Even if it does change, however (i.e. that article gets deleted); that does not mean I am guaranteed success if I proceed with trying to win this person (though, I admit, I sure want to be able to proceed!) THAT (i.e. success) will only happen if it is God's WILL! And if it turns out to NOT be God's will, I completely understand! Either way? Here is a song that has been on my mind lately:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFvJUBEMLxA


Not that I am worried - just feeling the need to, again, move this mountain so that I can at least take a SHOT at winning this certain someone (if not some other certain someone). As things stand, however, I feel I cannot even do that - and that is what makes this song REALLY applicable!


Daniel Robbins

Feeling the Need to "Move a Mountain"

I felt like a "ran into a mountain" last night. A friend shared an article on Facebook, but when I went to read it, the first thing I noticed was a certain word; which, I am sorry to say, I have said, myself, far more than I should have. Nevertheless, I was grieved that the author had not found a more creative (though not as "sledge-hammer-ish) way to communicate. This, to me, was a mountain. One which I have decided to move! So - mountain: "Move! In Jesus' name!" Bye for now!


Sincerely,

Daniel Robbins

I was thinking...

I remember living in Australia, and having a close call with marrying someone significantly older than me. Then my mother emailed me, saying she had mentioned to my aunt what I might do - and that my aunt had said, "Oh! No! He mustn't! It might seem like a good idea for a while, but as time goes on, it will turn out to be a mistake." (I'm paraphrasing what she said, but that was the gist). Well, I wound up not marrying that older lady, and I sure am glad of that!


With that thought in mind? Even last year, when I was thinking I would like to marry this certain someone: I thought - I sure do pray that I would be preserved from inviting her into a situation that is anything other than the best for her. If this can be an opportunity of a lifetime for her, and the best thing that ever happened to her (and I am believing for it to be that, by all means), then as God allows, guides, provides, and makes way I intend to go all the way. I just want to make it clear - in no uncertain terms - that I have every intention of (as I have said) doing things legitimately. If things cannot be done legitimately, I don't want to do them!


Now, one might ask: HOW do I intend to do what I want to do, legitimately? By faith, determination, and a whole lot of creativity! At the end of the day, though; I want all involved to be able to rest assured that they have NOTHING to worry about from me, when it comes to integrity! And I pray to this end, in Jesus name!


By the way: Cuong - my Vietnamese supervisor at work - was talking to Kevin; the sales manager, and de facto overall manager where I work, about a certain pricing job. I overheard him say that he had given it to "Doctor". He was referring to me. Nino, one of the salesmen, called me by this nickname one day a long time ago, and I had to go back downstairs to ask if he was talking to me. He explained, "Your initials are 'DR' (i.e. Daniel Robbins)". That, to me was an "end of Psalm 86"-token-for-good! Especially hearing Cuong call me that, to my manager.


"Commit thy way unto the LORD, or Jehovah; trust also in him, and he shall bring it to pass - and he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light; and thy judgment as the noon-day." Psalm 37:5-6


"Abba! I would really like this girl! I consider her to be the 'desire of my heart'. I was willing to forego marrying her and seek someone more my age; but I sincerely believe that thou art bringing to pass a relationship with, again, this girl; which even goes beyond where we currently are at. If I am discerning thy will correctly; then please give her, her parents, and all other necessary people a peace that passeth all understanding about this. Bring it to pass, I pray thee. 'Hold deferred maketh the heart sick - but when the DESIRE cometh, it is a tree of life.' I have been waiting and doing what I can for a very long time. I do not want to be alone anymore; but I need thy help. I even need thee to move heaven and earth, and - thou willing, give me who I want. Bow the heavens, and come down. I know I can trust thee with this, and I do; but please remember me! In Jesus name, amen!

There's a Will!

My (Vietnamese) supervisor asked me how my "love life" is these days. I said, "Great!" I admitted that the challenge loomed (and it is a sizeable one, to say the least), but I also said, "There is a saying: where there is a will, there is a way. And there definitely is a 'will'!" (Of course, a "God willing" will - but I definitely "will" nonetheless!)