Here is the thing about... (revised)

...being "desperate": (...actually, I am going to list two things...)


a) The word would not even come close to describing my feelings - if it applied, and it doesn't, because I refuse to LET it apply! Again: "I'm NOT desperate!"


b) What I AM is "HUNGRY"! And guess what Jesus said! "BLESSED are ye which do HUNGER AND THIRST after RIGTHEOUSNESS, for ye shall be FILLED!" See? I am DEFINITELY hungry for RIGHTEOUSNESS! Again: see? Waiting OVER FOUR DECADES for one's bride? And then desiring to get MARRIED to her, and LOVE HER, and GIVE MYSELF FOR HER? That is DEFINITELY "righteousness", and it is what I am HUNGRY for without apology.


The thing that is so frightening is that I know that feelings like these are anything but safe. They must be reciprocated, or else there is disappointment. I, however, have come WAY too far to turn back now (I feel)! I pray, in Jesus' name, that the people I feel so strongly about marrying will feel the same way about me - and that God will move heaven and earth to give us whom we want - EACH OTHER! Believe me, he will have to, if it is going to happen; but I pray that it WILL happen, in Jesus' name, amen!.


LOVE,


Daniel




"To the chief musician upon Shoshanim for the sons of Korah - Maschil; A SONG OF LOVES
My heart is indicting a good matter - I speak of the things which I have made touching the king. My tongue is the pen of a ready writer..." Psalm XXXXV.

Trying to find...

...the federal candidates for my riding it proving to be a surprising challenge. I did, however, discover this helpful website:


https://www.campaignlifecoalition.com/index.php?p=Donation


I like the fact that is lists Conservative AND "Christian Heritage Party" candidates. Not that it seems the CHP will ever actually elect anyone - simply that I appreciate them anyway; and I definitely do NOT agree with the fallacy that voting for them is supposedly voting for the NDP or Liberals. That, in my opinion, is putting words in the voter's mouth. I vote for the LIBERALS or NDP is a vote for the Liberals or NDP. A vote for the CHP is a vote for the CHP.


And I would never blame anyone for voting CHP if they had the option. Not that I do not intend to run and win someday - simply, again, that that is certainly not today. By the way, I did email the Prime Minister and heard back from one of his staff, thanking me for the email. Anyone can do this at: pm.gc.ca. I made sure to mention I had a friend who works for Canada Post, and that he had not had a good experience with that Postal strike, among other things.


See, I encouraged the Prime Minister to speak out against forced abortion in China - after all, that is not even a choice!


By the way, I asked my sister if she would consider helping me get to Winnipeg and back. If ye could pray that that works out, I would really appreciate it! She had asked me if I planned to be there for thanksgiving.


Sincerely,


Daniel

Being Happy...

...On Purpose

I know I have to do it, because according to Joel Osteen (one of my heroes, personally), if I am not happy now, I will never be happy when I am married. For my part? I am DETERMINED to be happy when I am married, which is why I am determined to be happy NOW!

I pray, in Jesus' name, that God will do exceeding, abundantly above and beyond all that we can ask or think, and meet my friends' need so handily, that they are ready and willing to fly me to Manitoba for a visit!

Love,

Daniel

Britt Nicole...

...is on a roll! "Breakthrough!"


Daniel

1. Go ye forth!... - revised

...and watch "Room-War"! /
Maketh me - that movie - "ROAR!" /
That's right - IN! The The-... a-... tre! /
What suppose ye? That I'll "purr"? /


2. Then again, it's also true: /
I'm wont, also, that, to do! /


;)



Love,

Daniel Robbins

(Psalm CIIII.21)

I posted this on Facebook...

...but am listening to it now, and thinking: Must... post... here... too!




Sincerely,

Daniel

Another really good one... - revised

...by Brit Nicole is "All This Time."

Daniel

Am listening to... - revised YET again!

...this, right now! What a great song!


Sincerely,

Daniel


P.S. Here is another great one by the same artist!


P.S.S. Another ... ...two!


I'll tell you - this Brit Nicole is such a inspiration. And she has been through a lot more than me! It encourages me to remember simply let my suffering be a channel of God's blessing to others!

Better day... - revised

..."no roars"! (See, in Australia, they like to say, "Nah-ooh Wah-oo-ries!" Again: today, it was "no roars"! ;)) There was even "no Garret" until about 9:30 AM. Interestingly, last night, I got up at 3 AM and realized there had been a power outage, because my alarm clock was flashing on and off. Therefore, I reset it. That likely helped me with being up on time this morning. Then again, as I often do, I had it set for 4 something AM, and then turned it OFF! (I NEVER use "snooze"!) And went back to a more shallow sleep. Shallow enough that I monitor the time from time to time. This morning, that was until it was just before 6 AM - early enough to get out and on the train, and even eventually on a 409 bus, which got me there 10 minutes early.


Well, Garret mentioned the same power outage, as one of the reasons he was so late. I should make a point of getting a "backup" battery for my alarm clock. And Garret definitely did not say that ridiculously crass word again - and I am glad he didn't! He sure drops the f-bomb like there is no tomorrow, but that is what my ear muffs are for - and do I ever use them!


Heavenly Father, may that "loaded" envelope I put in the mail be a blessing, in Jesus' name. Amen.


Sincerely,


Daniel

Timing

I came out of church last night (Kensington Commons, again), and - again - prayed for "perfect timing" with the number 1 bus. This time, once again, it was perfect; but with a definite twist! See, the bus wasn't right there at a red light, as it had been last time. Therefore, I decided to try texting Calgary Transit, because - when it works - they tell you when the bus will be arriving. The last couple of time I had tried it, it hadn't worked, though - and yet you still have to pay for sending the text message (especially when you are me, and you do NOT have "unlimited" anything on your cell phone! Now, it only costs 20 cents per text, but I still don't like wasting 20 cents.)

I sent the text... Again! It came back saying, "this service is unavailable"... Guess what I did then!... That's right! I roared! Then I tried to find a number 1 schedule in my backpack. I had a lot of schedules, but not a number 1 schedule. Then I realized there was a schedule in the pocket of my blue jacket (which I had not been wearing over the summer). I pulled it out, and it was a number 1 schedule. I was trying to look up the arrival time, when... there was the bus coming!

Therefore, again: the timing was perfect, but in a different sense this time! Obviously, God must have known I need to get a "roar" out of my system; which certainly happened.

This morning, as I walked from the bus stop to work? More roars! It was early enough that there was hardly anyone around. Whence those roars? Garret. A twenty-year-old with one last week to go at the company I work at. I was wrestling with what to do about him.

He doesn't just swear. He says the unspeakably obnoxious word that refers to the womb - but it starts with "c". He did it again today, and I made a written record of it. I think he reads those records of mine, too - and he might be pretty angry about them. Please pray for me - and him! I certainly have no pleasure in his death; and if he goes around being "over-much wicked" like that, he WILL die!

Also, I put up a "War-Room" poster by my desk. That is a movie that will be showing in theatres in Canada starting on the 18th. I was invited to a screening, and went, and was definitely impressed.

Sincerely,

Daniel

P.S. I put a real fat envelope in the mail over the weekend - big enough that I put two stamps on it, to make sure it goes through! :)

My landlord!

I heard him on the phone at 2:30 AM! It did not sound good! Sure enough! He was phoning the ambulance! I sure pray he is OK, in Jesus' name!

Sincerely,

Daniel

The ticket!

The extra ticket! I did not even have to pay for it, because my friend's wife bought it for her daughter! Thank you so much to whoever prayed about my situation. I do love you, OK? I cannot help it!

Daniel

...but... - revised

...I still go. Remember how Paul wrote in I Corinthians XV. that he laboured harder then them all - yet it was not him, but the grace of God in him? I can definitely relate to what he was saying there. Now, I'm here alone at the hotel. I just checked out - so I definitely saved some money by doing that. (I was going to rent the room for two nights, but seeing I had to "-62,994" my "-4,576,105,282" out, I no longer need it. After all, I was seeking to make sure "-171" was comfortable. I wound up only paying for one night, which, again, will save me money.)

I also, however, have two tickets for the football game to somehow pay for. What comes to mind, however, is:

"Count it all joy, my brethren, when ye fall into divers temptations - knowing that the trying of your faith worketh patience. Let patience have her perfect work in you, that ye may be perfect and entire; wanting nothing." James I

I do, however, pray that I will at least be able to find someone to use the (now) extra ticket - even if I have to pay for them both. It is a very lonely feeling right now, though, and I mourn.

And I definitely pray for my "-4,576,105,282", that God will be with "-4510", watch over "-4510", and reveal to "-4510" the need to "198,420".

Last night, I came out of church and prayed for perfect timing with the bus. In the past, I have had to wait a very long time for the number 1 bus; and I wanted this time to be different. Then, I looked to my right. There was a number 1 bus! Not only was it there - it was at a red light! That meant I had time to run to the bus stop before it got there. It was, indeed, perfect.

However, there were two young men on the bus who were profane. Not quite enough for me to complain to the driver, but it sure is a good thing they didn't let another f-bomb drop. By the way, I do not allow myself to use that word.

If I ever catch myself indulging in it, I remember. I remember my mother saying not to even let it roll off my tongue - but I also remember a friend, who got an article off her wall when I asked if she would. And it was on account of that word. Therefore, I resolve to (as I quoted before): "Take heed to my ways, that I sin not with my tongue. I will keep my mouth with a bridle, while the wicked is before me..." Psalm XXXIX.1-2

Just like that bus, though, I pray that God will have mercy and let me look up and see my "-6,282,801". Just like that number 1 bus was right there - at the red light, giving me time to be at the stop; I pray that God will work things out perfectly. Once, however, I am "on the bus", I pray that I will know what to do - and that he will help me when I DON'T know what to do!

Again, I got on the bus, but there was a problem! Two young men who where polluting the air! It was definitely a problem, but I dealt with it the best way I knew how. (I looked at the one young man when I decided he had pushed things far enough). I have no idea what I am going to have to do as a "house-band" (a.k.a. husband) and father; but I don't want to be alone like this. If I were married, I would not even try to make something like this fly - putting up my "-4,576,105,282" in a hotel. For one thing, my wife would probably see that it was a bad idea, and keep me from attempting it. As things stand, I learned a painful lesson.

I do want to do it ("-5339" "-571,204,558"), though - even though I know I will never be the same. I will even be...

...(Backgrounder: I once heard the saying: "man is not complete until he is married - then he is really finished!")...

..."really finished". Seriously! I accept that! I know I have said this before, and I can only imagine what I am asking for, but "bring it on" anyway.

Love,

Daniel

See...

...it takes effort to show up for church - and, again, I don't fit in!

Daniel

God willing was right!

It was actually getting ME off to church. And, by the way, I pray that God will vindicate me because I... showed... up.

Love,

Daniel

Checking out the hotel near where I live...

...because, if God will, I will be needing it to host a friend! Not that I want to be presumptuous. If he doesn't want to come, I understand, but: "The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD, or Jehovah, as the rivers of waters - he turneth it withersoever he will." (Proverbs XXI.1) My prayer is: "Abba! Father! Turn the king's heart!" (I prayed that with my forehead to the floor right here in the business centre at the jolly hotel where I have rented a room for two nights so that my brother can be comfortable. He wants to see the Stampeders game tomorrow. Why, some may I ask, have I been praying with my face to the floor? Because enough is enough! Because it is on! Because when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Also, "the wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof - but canst not tell whence it cometh and wither it goeth - so is everyone that is born of the spirit." (John III. something like verse six or seven))

I have been praying like that for a long time, actually - and one of my cherished memories was living in Moose Jaw, and having two young Mormon Missionary "Elders" (and - hey! They ARE mature for their age! So hooray for them!) coming over. And then we would pray, and I would get down on my elbows and knees and my face to the floor, and before I knew it, THEY would instinctively do that when we went to pray before they left! They loved it! They picked up on it! Just how powerful it was.

Also? Screwtape Letters! C.S. Lewis! It says that posture in prayer is CRUCIAL! And C.S. Lewis is RIGHT about that! Alright! Time to, God willing, and by the grace of God, get my brother off to CHURCH... at Kensington Commons Church!

LOVE YOU!

Daniel

Breakthrough!

I am definitely glad I made that trip! I was reminded to never give up! Strongholds that seemed like they never would be broken, broke! I showed my parents "Inside Out" (my brother did not want to watch "a cartoon", so he went to Chapters instead.) Ironically, my Mom was the only one that didn't cry! (I always cry at that movie). Then I went and saw a screening of the movie "War Room"! It was really good!


I must admit: at work, I was reminded to be thankful when I have to wait for new things. For example: designing floors. I said I was ready, but then had to wait a long time before actually starting to design floor joists. I am so glad for that waiting time, because it is a real learning curve. I can only imagine what finally getting married and having children is going to be like. Especially for me! I am listening to yet another song:


"Who but thee (also known as 'you') ;)"


Sincerely,


Daniel


P.S. A Happy Birthday to a good friend of mine!