Even though I was...

...scared... I'm not... worried! "Great peace have they which love thy law - and nothing shall offend them." (Psalm 119:165) Even having to let this dream die.. again, if I have to, shall not offend me. I admit - it's an agonizing thought; but nothing compared to the amazing blessings that I believe will come out of taking my shot - AND making it! See, I've taken "long shots" (to say the least) before!


Back in 2008, I discovered how to count to 31 on one hand, 1023 on two (see www.binfinco.blogspot.com); and far, far beyond. In fact, it was when I discovered I could get up to beyond 29,000... and then decided to count it through... that I... woke up! To a reality: I had had NO IDEA how much 29,000 was! Seriously, it felt like I would never finish.


It was after that that I decided to count to 1,048,576 (or 2 to the power of ten). After completing that in about half a year; I set my sights on 33,554,432 (or 1,048,576 times 32 - it was, at that time, the counting potential I had discovered on ONE HAND, with ONE FINGER! I, therefore, decided that the LEAST I could do was count to THAT!) I lived to wonder why I had set that goal, though - because my second "million" actually took two to three times longer than my first! It felt as though I would never get THERE! (By the way? A lot of my counting happened while walking or running to and from work.)


Honestly, there were times where I wondered if I would ever finish (approximately) 33.5 million. Again - honestly - I thought I might be working away at it for the rest of my life! Little by little, though, I discovered that I could not help but... accelerate! And that turned out to be the key to not only reaching my goal; but going as far beyond it as I could ever have cared to!


I still remember my niece, Emma, asking me if I could count to a billion - and I said, "Well, I don't think I'll ever count that far..." Then, the next time she saw me, she asked me about that again ("Uncle Daniel, you haven't counted to a billion, right?) - and I HAD just counted beyond a billion! (So, no - even I did not see that coming!)


Within five years, I counted to 897 duovigintillion (using the American system - not the British) - and, again, I had wondered if I would get to 33.5 million in my lifetime! That tells me I can afford to take "long shots" like this. Also? I do think I am in my rights, doing what I can to see this come to pass.


I mean, I am definitely pursuing my hearts desire - but I think God put it there; and that a LOT of people stand to benefit from my having the courage to "do what I can" (but - of course - not what I "can't").


I've already let this dream die - and, as far as I'm concerned, it has sprouted back up... again! And I welcome it back! I will do everything I can to see that it flourishes and comes to fruition!


Now, this weekend continues to march towards me, as I have said before; and I am not really feeling ready for it! I wanted to make something and get it in the mail - but it is taking me way more time than I thought! Therefore, God willing, I will send an "E-Card" and get the package in the mail as soon as possible!


I am so thankful to be busy, though! I remember living in Saskatoon, between paying jobs (perhaps I had been seasonally laid off by H and R Block). I "didn't have to do anything", and it was AWFUL! That is NOT the way things are right now, and I love that!


What I REALLY look forward to is, God willing, getting married to the "best-of-the-best", and then REALLY having to do all sorts of stuff! Again? "Bring it on!" For now, though: bring on the continued preparation I know God is making in me - and her.


Sincerely,


Daniel