It's Gone!

I looked - and it's gone! The mountain moved! I am so thankful! Thank YOU to the person who played a part in that happening. THANK YOU for your respect! I take it very seriously, and even with fear and trembling! I never want to take it for granted. I do, however, want to continue to do whatever I legitimately can to be a blessing. I also do want to marry someone whom I love, and who also loves me. How exactly that is going to look, I know not (especially - again - as per Proverbs 27:1 "Boast not thyself of tomorrow, for thou knowest not what a day may bring forth.")


I am at my wits end, though; OK? Four decades is a LONG TIME to wait, so please do bear with me if I "chomp at the bit" from time to time. Nevertheless, I KNOW I must really watch myself, and I am doing so. I have been quoting this verse a lot these days: "A wise man feareth, and departeth from evil - but the fool rageth, and is confident." I do NOT want to be that fool! I want to FEAR! And DEPART from evil!


I quoted another verse, however, as well, to a beloved friend last night: "The wicked flee when no man pursueth, but the righteous are bold as a lion." This morning? With that Unitarian Minister? I stood my ground! I held fast my integrity - and I let him know so! I think he is case in point of society's prejudice against, well, men like me! Men who just plain cannot play along with what is considered "normal". When you're me? You learn to appreciate it when all you have to do is show up and be yourself. And you get complete acceptance and even love! I pray that it will be understood why this keeps me coming back for more. Everyone needs that - but not everyone gets that, to say the least. And at that Unitarian "Universalist" Church? I did NOT get that yesterday or today!


Not that I'm complaining! I love the idea of - at the very least - having that church as one of the many churches I can go to if I want (and, from time to time, God willing, I will pay them a visit - because I do see things in them that the rest of us need). But plug in there? Make that my home church? Forget it, pal!


I love the way God insists on my remaining WILD! Hallelujah! And it is NOT by my design! It is by HIS! I will say that until the cows come home! I have TRIED AND TRIED to "fit in" at all these different churches! God? He makes it clear in no uncertain terms that - again - he wants me WILD!


Here's what I love, though: SOME PEOPLE obviously have decided to make sure I don't ALWAYS have to be "out in the cold", and they make sure I always have a place of welcome! I love these people! And - again: I am going to do everything I can legitimately do to be a blessing to them! Even a "super-blessing"! What do I mean by "super-blessing"? Please, again, do bear with me - but: "Stay tuned..."


LOVE!


Daniel