She did this - revised

Today, at work, I was listening to this song over and over. And I was thinking: she did this? Who? The girl, whose birthday I get to be there for tomorrow. See - as I have said - I had had to "die on a dime" to certain dreams (at least, the way I had been dreaming of them coming about). I mean, in a moment of time, I had to put myself in my friends' shoes, and I knew I would do what I was hoping they would. So - again - I dropped it; right then and there.


What I am thankful for is, we still went on our outing and had a great time; but when you have the kind of "forward momentum" I had, and then you just have to die to it, right then and there - it's traumatic!


So, there we were. The "outing" was over. And "they" were going to leave. Then, however, one of my good friends looked right at me, called me by name, and thanked me for suggesting the outing. I said, "...You're welcome..." Then, "she" (the girl)... "held my heart". At least, that is how I would describe it in retrospect.


I had given her a book for her birthday. And she held it up for me to see and beamed that it was her favourite book. I cannot think of a better way to "hold my heart" than that. I remember picking out that book for her, and thinking it was the right choice. To get confirmation like that, at a time like that? How can I describe it?

-...OK, so, whereas I remember this? I have since learned that it doesn't quite stick out in her memory like it does in mine. Oh well! Sometimes we don't realize how much we're impacting someone at the time!

She was definitely (as I have referred to before) "speaking life" to me - and I needed it! Again! I had just died on a dime earlier that day. Even now, I go back to that moment over and over, and derive life from that moment.


In fact: I AM on my knees! (At the library). Praying that I will be able to pull a Proverbs XI.25 tomorrow. "The liberal soul shall be made fat - and he that watereth shall be watered also himself."


"아버지 (Ah-Buh-Jeeh - or "Father"), please let me be a blessing. Let me water her, and them; and leave them better than I found them - and be watered also myself. I've said it before, and I'm saying it again: I don't know how I got here. I could never have imagined I would be here right now. I love it, but I do pray for help. Preservation. Wisdom. Discretion. Let me behave myself wisely and in a perfect way (Psalm CI.2). I believe for the best, but also pray for help with thus believing."


I am facing giants today; and my problems definitely look too big in the natural. The only way my dreams seem ...possible is when I take out the "im". I thank thee, however, for my past victories. For giving me the ability to kill lions and bears. To survive lions' dens. Thou hast brought me - Oh! So far. I may not have gotten married by my last birthday, but I sure had my "birthday nephew" crawl up to me (ON my last birthday, as I was still sleeping on the floor in my sister's and brother-in-law's living room)! And I THANK thee for the extra time to prepare. Help me to! And help me to get packed and to bed tonight! Nice and early. In Jesus name! Amen! And bless my friends, and give them all a good sleep tonight, too!


Love,


Daniel