Drink waters... - edited

...out of thine own cistern, and running waters out of thine own well... Let thy fountain be blessed, and rejoice with the wife of thy youth. Let her be as the loving hind and the pleasant roe. let her... satisfy thee at all times, and be thou ravished always with her love (or, err thou always in her love). Proverbs V.

God: I thank thee for helping me with finding a wife, but I confess: I still need help! For one thing, I need wisdom! These dreams! "Secret petitions of the heart". Are they legit? I certainly would love to think they are, but I keep having to die to them! And it takes its toll on my heart. Not that I would want all of this to be boring or anything - and it DEFINITELY is not THAT!

"Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous sins - let them not have dominion over me. Then shall I be upright - and I shall be innocent from the great transgression (or, from much transgression). Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight - O LORD, or Jehovah, my strength, and my redeemer." Psalm XIX.13-14

I don't want to do anything I cannot do: a) Above board, b) fair and square, and c) legitimately. I simply have a definition of what can be done in the above fashion, which makes "bold" look like "mashed bananas"! I love it? But I also pray that I will only ever be a blessing to my friends, whom I love!

Friends, I hope you realize you gave my dreams a lease on life. I mean, I knew I had to let go of them... again! Let them die... again! (By the way: just in case there was any doubt? Letting these dreams go? Die? Over... and over... again? I cannot put into words how agonizing that is! Nevertheless, I would choose that over letting them die, and stay dead ANY DAY OF THE WEEK!) I mean, I was seriously going to head out that night! I thought God had even providentially provided a place to go! The all night prayer meeting!

And I was right that God had provided - it is just that it was a lot closer at hand than I was thinking! The couch! And - oh! What a relief!

To get up the next morning, and CONTINUE sharing STUFF! And help out a bit. And read a few verses from that massive Bible. And to be sent off with reassurance of being loved. And getting a very welcome visit this summer. Yeah - that definitely gives my dreams a lease on life. That is, of course, trusting you don't have to call me off from them. You can still do that, if needs be. I wanted to make sure you still knew that.

Love,

Daniel