...remember that band I used to love to listen to? And a good friend of mine hated it? And She even cared enough about me to tell me so? Well, I was remembering one of their songs yesterday (which I used to absolutely love), and decided to listen to it. (Found it on You-tube). I didn't finish the song, though. I decided: "She was right. There is a lot to hate about this." I hope she is proud.
Daniel
Friday, July 31, 2015
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
I am at work right now...
...and it is 9:12 PM, and am still buried in work... It was an awful day today. You know, even being me is awful. Not that I do not love it - just that I feel REALLY in over my head these days. I mean, how could I EVER have wound up being where I am right now? Let me simply say: I am REALLY feeling the struggle right now. And pray that God will redeem all of this, in such a way that amazes and blesses everyone involved, "exceeding abundantly above all that we can ask, think, or dream." In Jesus' name, amen.
Daniel
P.S. Here's a poem I actually rewrote, when someone requested a poem, which I had written, and which I had mentioned in church once. I couldn't find it, so I rewrote it.
Daniel
P.S. Here's a poem I actually rewrote, when someone requested a poem, which I had written, and which I had mentioned in church once. I couldn't find it, so I rewrote it.
Monday, July 27, 2015
Hold Each Other - revised
Because ye can, is my humble request. After all, I am doing my part! I got up as early as possible, last "Saturn Day" morning (also known as "Satur...") and took the bus and train to Nose Hill Park. I hiked up it, and practiced my four Psalms, song, and etc. Then I hiked down a different way than the way I had hiked up (after all, you can do that, when you have a transit pass as your way of getting around - and, also, when you are just by yourself.)
Then, as I am on my way to get "fries supreme" at Taco Time (at Market Mall), I discover the Cheesecake Company. And a sign says they are having a brunch buffet. Therefore, I go in and get it! Then, I keep walking, and eventually get tired enough that I just HAVE to lie down on some grass and have a nap!
Then, I keep going, eventually stop by the library, head to Centre Street Church, hear Brian Stiller (former president of the Evangelical Fellowship of Canada) speak on Evangelicalism. It was good - especially seeing I have been born again (...AGAIN!), though I also definitely have a lot in common with Evangelicals...
Do ye know what? He did make "Christ being the only means of salvation" one of the essential points of Evangelicalism (and, of course, I stop short of agreeing with him on even that - and, yes, I admit, that is shocking even to me right now! I mean, who would have ever thought I would disagree with that! I mean, who wants to get crucified; and in fundamentalism and evangelicalism, you DO get crucified for not believing that! It takes time, but sooner or later, out come that hammer and those nails! Oh well! At least I can breathe! That's right, I now look back and wonder how I ever dragged that ball and chain around! Free at last!); but he did NOT mention "Hel" as one of them (and - come on, people; Evangelicals believe that one too!). Definitely not. I cannot even vividly remember him mentioning it at all. He sure did not emphasize it - and, again, that is IF he mentioned it!
If he majored on anything, it was "the love of God." What I have to say about that is: "The love of God" and "Hel" - or the doctrine of eternal conscious torment, in my opinion, are mutually exclusive. Give yourself ANY kind of freedom to even CONSIDER the truth of that statement, and it will resonate with such force, you will never be the same. Again, this is definitely in my opinion.
Getting back to what I was saying, though: I had me one spontaneous "Saturn Day" because I could! And I enjoyed it! But I sure do agonize! It's no walk in the park, being alone; and I sure pray that ye, who are not alone, will appreciate that fact and - again - hold each other! Do it for "4,263,129.1 -150,382,010.1"! Because he is believing for his dreams to come to pass - but he is also having to say to himself - over... and over... and over... that he wants to... NOT "-7434", but "-777,491,631.1"! Even when he feels he can hardly say it anymore.
Sincerely,
Daniel
Then, as I am on my way to get "fries supreme" at Taco Time (at Market Mall), I discover the Cheesecake Company. And a sign says they are having a brunch buffet. Therefore, I go in and get it! Then, I keep walking, and eventually get tired enough that I just HAVE to lie down on some grass and have a nap!
Then, I keep going, eventually stop by the library, head to Centre Street Church, hear Brian Stiller (former president of the Evangelical Fellowship of Canada) speak on Evangelicalism. It was good - especially seeing I have been born again (...AGAIN!), though I also definitely have a lot in common with Evangelicals...
Do ye know what? He did make "Christ being the only means of salvation" one of the essential points of Evangelicalism (and, of course, I stop short of agreeing with him on even that - and, yes, I admit, that is shocking even to me right now! I mean, who would have ever thought I would disagree with that! I mean, who wants to get crucified; and in fundamentalism and evangelicalism, you DO get crucified for not believing that! It takes time, but sooner or later, out come that hammer and those nails! Oh well! At least I can breathe! That's right, I now look back and wonder how I ever dragged that ball and chain around! Free at last!); but he did NOT mention "Hel" as one of them (and - come on, people; Evangelicals believe that one too!). Definitely not. I cannot even vividly remember him mentioning it at all. He sure did not emphasize it - and, again, that is IF he mentioned it!
If he majored on anything, it was "the love of God." What I have to say about that is: "The love of God" and "Hel" - or the doctrine of eternal conscious torment, in my opinion, are mutually exclusive. Give yourself ANY kind of freedom to even CONSIDER the truth of that statement, and it will resonate with such force, you will never be the same. Again, this is definitely in my opinion.
Getting back to what I was saying, though: I had me one spontaneous "Saturn Day" because I could! And I enjoyed it! But I sure do agonize! It's no walk in the park, being alone; and I sure pray that ye, who are not alone, will appreciate that fact and - again - hold each other! Do it for "4,263,129.1 -150,382,010.1"! Because he is believing for his dreams to come to pass - but he is also having to say to himself - over... and over... and over... that he wants to... NOT "-7434", but "-777,491,631.1"! Even when he feels he can hardly say it anymore.
Sincerely,
Daniel
Sunday, July 26, 2015
Love this video! - revised
This Nervous Man Nearly Breaks Down Before BLOWING The Crowd Away. WOW!
I can definitely relate to him. And do ye know what I love? The fact that one of the lady judges sees what is happening and "catches" him. He is falling, but she is not just going to let him fall. She doesn't just throw him out. She works with him. Helps him get a grip and not just fall apart.
I feel that I need someone like that. Someone who can say, "Hey! I get this! This guy has all sorts of potential, but he is going to need help - and I think I am meant to be that help!" For this, I pray, in Jesus' name. Amen.
Daniel
P.S. I don't like tattoos, but I sure have to give credit to that lady - and, hey! She has a tattoo on her arm! As they say in Australia? "-167,071.1 -146,128,564.1!"
P.S.S. I also had to love the subject matter of the song he sung.
I can definitely relate to him. And do ye know what I love? The fact that one of the lady judges sees what is happening and "catches" him. He is falling, but she is not just going to let him fall. She doesn't just throw him out. She works with him. Helps him get a grip and not just fall apart.
I feel that I need someone like that. Someone who can say, "Hey! I get this! This guy has all sorts of potential, but he is going to need help - and I think I am meant to be that help!" For this, I pray, in Jesus' name. Amen.
Daniel
P.S. I don't like tattoos, but I sure have to give credit to that lady - and, hey! She has a tattoo on her arm! As they say in Australia? "-167,071.1 -146,128,564.1!"
P.S.S. I also had to love the subject matter of the song he sung.
Sunday, July 19, 2015
The Rich Man and Lazarus - revised YET again!
http://www.tentmaker.org/books/RichManandLazarus-Patching.html
Want to know how I came to be the born again believer that I am today? The above article was about as critical a turning point as any. I will never again participate in "pushing Jesus" on anyone - and I ask that it never be done to me again; with all due respect. Not that I have never done it myself. I vividly remember unknowingly doing this to a friend in South Korea. I even had him saying, "I believe... I believe..." Well! Was I ever pleased! I started planning his baptism for him! Announcing his conversion to others at the "Church" (or Assembly). Then a Korean-speaking member of that congregation let me in on a little secret. Hyeon-Sooh did not really believe, after all - he had only said that in order to please me.
Then it started! The onslaught of, "Oh!... Daniel!... Please do not be disappointed!..." What was so unbearable was: I did not TELL him that I was not disappointed!... In fact, I KEPT TELLING HIM that I was NOT!... And yet he "KEPT SAYING IT!"... "Oh!... Daniel!... Please do not be disappointed!..." Finally, I asked him, "Why?... Do you keep?... Saying that...?"
Then he updated me on the colour of my face: "WHITE!" I am so glad that day is over. As well as the day he explained to me, over brother Bae's cell phone, that my religious zeal was (regrettably) a cause of regret for him. He explained that, in Korea, they have freedom of religion. I was simply trying to be a blessing, and yet here he felt I was pushing Jesus on him. I meant well - I just had to realize I was not doing well.
Saul of Tarsus had this experience on the road to Damascus in Acts chapter 9. Fast forward to today? I think that, ironically, a lot of people who think they are "pleasing Jesus" are actually persecuting him. I sure felt persecuted! Still do! And all I am doing is seeking to FOLLOW Jesus' example in refusing to play along with man-made traditions that are anything but helpful.
I love the movie: "Courageous"; but there is one scene I have learned to go use the washroom during. It only took one viewing of the movie to learn this. After that, I either use the washroom or plug my ears. Again, I know the movie producers meant well in including that in their movie, but I cannot describe how angry that scene makes me. "For the zeal of thine house, hath eaten me up - and the reproaches of them that reproached thee are fallen upon me." Psalm 69
One other book I did not mention in this post, before, is "Hinds Feet on High Places" by Hannah Hurnard. I read that book back in 2009, and was so glad I finally had. In fact, I did Internet research on her, and learned that she had become a "2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476". It was then that I realized these people existed! They were actually out there! And they actually believed that! And they thought they were right.
At that point, however, I had the mindset: "OK... ye actually exist... but nobody - and I mean nobody - buys that... and I don't want that kind of "2,268,084,002,236" rejection! So I backfiled it. I moved on. It was only years later that I read the "Rich Man and Lazarus" article, shared above. And, as I was reading it, it dawned on me that: "Great!... He's a '2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476', too! Another one of those... OK, but, do I really want this kind of reproach?..."
Here's what I love, though: even though I have had fun identifying myself as a "2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476", I have realized something: I love "2,268,084,002,236.1/-93,846", but I am so much more comfortable with being, as I said earlier: a "-90,889,628,616,503.1 -129,042,548,680.1"! In fact, at work, my boss, Cuong, said he thought I was a devout CATHOLIC! Then he corrected himself and said, "Christian", but even at that point, I insisted on further clarification: "-90,889,628,616,503.1 -129,042,548,680.1".
I have also, however, these days, been recalling something I once said to a friend I was visiting in Toronto. It was obvious he did not respect me, to say the least. And he was making this known. And I was not saying anything. And he WANTED me to say something... So I said...
"...-333...70,769,007,746..."
Daniel
Want to know how I came to be the born again believer that I am today? The above article was about as critical a turning point as any. I will never again participate in "pushing Jesus" on anyone - and I ask that it never be done to me again; with all due respect. Not that I have never done it myself. I vividly remember unknowingly doing this to a friend in South Korea. I even had him saying, "I believe... I believe..." Well! Was I ever pleased! I started planning his baptism for him! Announcing his conversion to others at the "Church" (or Assembly). Then a Korean-speaking member of that congregation let me in on a little secret. Hyeon-Sooh did not really believe, after all - he had only said that in order to please me.
Then it started! The onslaught of, "Oh!... Daniel!... Please do not be disappointed!..." What was so unbearable was: I did not TELL him that I was not disappointed!... In fact, I KEPT TELLING HIM that I was NOT!... And yet he "KEPT SAYING IT!"... "Oh!... Daniel!... Please do not be disappointed!..." Finally, I asked him, "Why?... Do you keep?... Saying that...?"
Then he updated me on the colour of my face: "WHITE!" I am so glad that day is over. As well as the day he explained to me, over brother Bae's cell phone, that my religious zeal was (regrettably) a cause of regret for him. He explained that, in Korea, they have freedom of religion. I was simply trying to be a blessing, and yet here he felt I was pushing Jesus on him. I meant well - I just had to realize I was not doing well.
Saul of Tarsus had this experience on the road to Damascus in Acts chapter 9. Fast forward to today? I think that, ironically, a lot of people who think they are "pleasing Jesus" are actually persecuting him. I sure felt persecuted! Still do! And all I am doing is seeking to FOLLOW Jesus' example in refusing to play along with man-made traditions that are anything but helpful.
I love the movie: "Courageous"; but there is one scene I have learned to go use the washroom during. It only took one viewing of the movie to learn this. After that, I either use the washroom or plug my ears. Again, I know the movie producers meant well in including that in their movie, but I cannot describe how angry that scene makes me. "For the zeal of thine house, hath eaten me up - and the reproaches of them that reproached thee are fallen upon me." Psalm 69
One other book I did not mention in this post, before, is "Hinds Feet on High Places" by Hannah Hurnard. I read that book back in 2009, and was so glad I finally had. In fact, I did Internet research on her, and learned that she had become a "2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476". It was then that I realized these people existed! They were actually out there! And they actually believed that! And they thought they were right.
At that point, however, I had the mindset: "OK... ye actually exist... but nobody - and I mean nobody - buys that... and I don't want that kind of "2,268,084,002,236" rejection! So I backfiled it. I moved on. It was only years later that I read the "Rich Man and Lazarus" article, shared above. And, as I was reading it, it dawned on me that: "Great!... He's a '2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476', too! Another one of those... OK, but, do I really want this kind of reproach?..."
Here's what I love, though: even though I have had fun identifying myself as a "2,268,084,002,236.1/-3,476", I have realized something: I love "2,268,084,002,236.1/-93,846", but I am so much more comfortable with being, as I said earlier: a "-90,889,628,616,503.1 -129,042,548,680.1"! In fact, at work, my boss, Cuong, said he thought I was a devout CATHOLIC! Then he corrected himself and said, "Christian", but even at that point, I insisted on further clarification: "-90,889,628,616,503.1 -129,042,548,680.1".
I have also, however, these days, been recalling something I once said to a friend I was visiting in Toronto. It was obvious he did not respect me, to say the least. And he was making this known. And I was not saying anything. And he WANTED me to say something... So I said...
"...-333...70,769,007,746..."
| -773,771,544.1 |
Daniel
Thursday, July 16, 2015
"Sorry" - Revised again...
Sometimes, I simply have to admit that life squeezes attitudes out of me, which I wish I had not had; and this is one of them. "You" deserve an impeccable attitude out of me, and "you're" going to get one, as much as I can help it. Forgive me, though, for the times I have seemingly not been able to help it.
One more than one occasion, I have been called a "138,611,063.1", if not just plain "5,133,743". I can understand why, because have definitely acted that way at times. If someone were to ask me: "OK, so, all of a sudden, you don't want to be thought of as '5,133,743'? Whatever brought that on?"
I have been reminded of a short story I read when I was in high school. It is entitled: "On the Sidewalk Bleeding". I can relate to Andy. In fact, I actually feel a lot like him. Bleeding. Even dying. And - like him - realizing that I don't want to be what I have been.
God willing, I will call on "-18,170.1" Day, also known as "Mon..."
Love,
Daniel
"For I am poor and sorrowful, and my heart is wounded within me..." Psalm 109
One more than one occasion, I have been called a "138,611,063.1", if not just plain "5,133,743". I can understand why, because have definitely acted that way at times. If someone were to ask me: "OK, so, all of a sudden, you don't want to be thought of as '5,133,743'? Whatever brought that on?"
I have been reminded of a short story I read when I was in high school. It is entitled: "On the Sidewalk Bleeding". I can relate to Andy. In fact, I actually feel a lot like him. Bleeding. Even dying. And - like him - realizing that I don't want to be what I have been.
God willing, I will call on "-18,170.1" Day, also known as "Mon..."
Love,
Daniel
"For I am poor and sorrowful, and my heart is wounded within me..." Psalm 109
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
Monday, July 13, 2015
Heavenly Father...
...thou knowest why I would like to go, but I trust thee to overrule. In Jesus' name, amen.
Daniel
Daniel
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Should I go... - revised again!
...to Manitoba in about a month and three quarters? I sure pray I will be able to get the green light on such a trip! ;) ... but I also pray I will be a good sport about it if not! ♥
Love,
Daniel
Love,
Daniel
Saturday, July 11, 2015
"Thou hast given me the heritage..."
"...of those that fear thy name." Psalm 61:5 That is one thing I really pray I will be able to pass on to my children; and I thank my parents for it!
Sincerely,
Daniel
Sincerely,
Daniel
Thursday, July 9, 2015
I can relate to this guy:... - REVISED!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L8UCfxmtSw
"I am as a wonder unto many - but thou art my strong refuge." Psalm LXXI.7
"-150,382,010"
"I am as a wonder unto many - but thou art my strong refuge." Psalm LXXI.7
"-150,382,010"
Saturday, July 4, 2015
Remember what I said...
...about "-6,558,064 -571,204,558" by a certain time? I wanted to think there was a way of making that work; but I must say, I refuse be a raging fool! And I know that "a wise man feareth, and departeth from evil - but the fool rageth, and is confident." Also, "As the churning of milk bringeth forth butter, and the wringing of the nose bringeth forth blood; so the forcing of wrath bringeth forth strife." See, I lament to say that I think I "forced wrath". I definitely did not mean to - I just did it anyway - and I'm sorry.
I remember talking to a friend on the phone, and one thing he said was that he thought it might be more feasible to think of, say, "-6,558,064 -3,476,416,816"... At the time, it was not really what I wanted to hear, but - honestly; at this point, I would be very thankful to see myself in a position where are least the groundwork was laid. If I had the "-3,628,475 -1,166,555" on "-183,409,819"; I am agreeing right now to find it in myself to be happy with that. Of course, I am saying this as a man. As such, I trust it is understood that doing so is agonizing, and involves more dying to myself.
I can see the writing on the wall, however, and it definitely says to "Fear, and depart from evil!" And therefore, I do that!
Love,
Daniel
I remember talking to a friend on the phone, and one thing he said was that he thought it might be more feasible to think of, say, "-6,558,064 -3,476,416,816"... At the time, it was not really what I wanted to hear, but - honestly; at this point, I would be very thankful to see myself in a position where are least the groundwork was laid. If I had the "-3,628,475 -1,166,555" on "-183,409,819"; I am agreeing right now to find it in myself to be happy with that. Of course, I am saying this as a man. As such, I trust it is understood that doing so is agonizing, and involves more dying to myself.
I can see the writing on the wall, however, and it definitely says to "Fear, and depart from evil!" And therefore, I do that!
Love,
Daniel
On Second Thought...
I did do those four Psalms and one song. It was on my way up to a certain lookout point; which I went up to at my family reunion. And it was for an audience of one: God.
Daniel
Daniel
Thursday, July 2, 2015
By the way...
... I also love singing "Jehoshaphat", and I do not have my cell phone any more. Therefore, I am suspecting I left if back in Manitoba. In fact, I am sure I did. I have not phoned my parents yet, but I will. I love you...
Daniel
Daniel
I didn't get the chance...
...to share those Psalms and that song, but I sure did get to walk on my jolly hands! I mourn, however, that I think I provoked my good friend to "hit me" (figuratively speaking), and I am still really feeling it! :(
Love,
Daniel
Love,
Daniel
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