Remember what I said...

...about "-6,558,064 -571,204,558" by a certain time? I wanted to think there was a way of making that work; but I must say, I refuse be a raging fool! And I know that "a wise man feareth, and departeth from evil - but the fool rageth, and is confident." Also, "As the churning of milk bringeth forth butter, and the wringing of the nose bringeth forth blood; so the forcing of wrath bringeth forth strife." See, I lament to say that I think I "forced wrath". I definitely did not mean to - I just did it anyway - and I'm sorry.

I remember talking to a friend on the phone, and one thing he said was that he thought it might be more feasible to think of, say, "-6,558,064 -3,476,416,816"... At the time, it was not really what I wanted to hear, but - honestly; at this point, I would be very thankful to see myself in a position where are least the groundwork was laid. If I had the "-3,628,475 -1,166,555" on "-183,409,819"; I am agreeing right now to find it in myself to be happy with that. Of course, I am saying this as a man. As such, I trust it is understood that doing so is agonizing, and involves more dying to myself.

I can see the writing on the wall, however, and it definitely says to "Fear, and depart from evil!" And therefore, I do that!

Love,

Daniel